RelationshipsAnonymous

10 Oct 1 min read

Self-Pleasure Has Come Between Me and My Man 💔

I'm living with my dad full time while I study online. My man is a long-distance truck driver, so by the time he comes home, he's tired and not in the mood. Sex was once a week at best, and even that one time, I had to nag and beg for it. I told myself, "Fine, I'll take care of myself." Every morning after he left for work and I dropped my daughter at crèche, I'd come back home and pleasure myself. The release felt so good, and afterwards I'd sleep like a baby. Soon it became three times a day, every day, before he got back. One day I Googled it. It said masturbation relieves stress, helps with headaches and period cramps, improves sleep, and strengthens the pelvic floor. I thought, so I'm basically doing wellness?😅 But now I have a real problem. I don't feel anything for my man anymore. When he touches me, I feel disgusted. I keep thinking he's not doing it right. He even took leave to spend time with me, and I keep making excuses. When we tried, I was completely dry. He noticed, and he asked me, "Are you seeing someone else?" Wallahi, I almost cried. 😔 We're getting married this November. We've come a long way, and he has done so much for me. He still takes care of me, and now he thinks I'm cheating. Should I tell him the truth about how I feel, or just find a way to stop? Please, I need honest advice.🙏