During my secondary school days, I was deeply in love with my classmates. We were each other’s everything, she was my entire existence and our love was pure and true (so I had thought). We decided to make a path to love each other forever, We pricked our fingers and mixed our blood, sealing our promise to always be together and never to break that promises.
But as we grew older, Life took a different turn. Her family relocated to another country and distance was definitely a barrier. At first we were pen friends for a while till we lost communication all of a sudden.
I tried to move on, but I am finding it difficult. I felt bound to her, unable to shake the feeling that I was meant to be with her. I wasn’t able to start, keep nor maintain a healthy relationship. During my University days I was in few relationships that all ended badly.
Years passed, and I struggled to form meaningful relationships. She was all I think about and most times I feel I am cheating on her whenever I am in a new relationship , even though we hadn’t spoken in years. The guilt and shame consumed me. I became withdrawn and isolated, unable to escape the torment of the promise and oath we took back in secondary school
Out of the blues, our path crossed again, seeing her brought a feeling of warmth I never felt since her departure. I thought it was fate at work, till she told me she was getting married, and she wanted me to come to her wedding. I was torn between my loyalty to our oath and my desire to move on. I ended up attending the wedding, and it was a painful reminder of what could have been.
After that, I realized that I needed to break free from the oath. I tried dating again but still encountered the same issues…. I will call and message her constantly even in her marital home. Eventually we connected and started dating again even though she was married. It went on for 8 years till she broke it off citing she wants to focus on her marriage.
Right now I’m in horrific pains.. I don’t know what to do, she and her husband have just one child who is 4 years old that I constantly feel is mine. I confronted her recently about the child because he looks just like me.
Please I need advice, what should I do at this point? I am still in love with her. Secondly, we both took the oath, why am I the only one feeling the negative effect?
4 Responses
It’s broken already , since she’s married to another man
Looool, mumu things,
Blood oath my a*s,
You lick blood,or you join blood,all na story.
Also try and get a job,even if na 3k labourer job per day,run am for 1 week,tell me if you still remember any drama.
The rest na folklore
That s**t don’t work. You only feel it is at play because you believe in it. Goodluck breaking your mind free. She moved on easily because she didn’t believe in it, infact she’s happily married except for the “ you “factor. You can move on too just fine
Very delicate situation right here, i don’t think there’s a spiritual force behind the oath… Totally let go and control your emotions. The pending damage here is the uncertainty about the paternity of her side. It would be better to clarify that and move on with your life regardless of the result.